Bear Lake Musings in the Muddy Water of Life

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Helplessness

It's been a week and a day and still the devestating images keep coming. I want to be there and help. I want to wipe their faces and provide comfort. I want to make everything better and take away the fear and nightmares, the images no child should see.

I have six adopted children and lately the desire for a baby has been stronger than ever. But now I'm a grandma, 8 grandkids and another one this spring. Do I have the stamina to do this all over again? My heart says yes but my body says, "are you crazy?" but I can't help that desir
e, longing to hold a little one. I looked seriously at the prospect of caring for a deaf child or one with disabilities. Three of my other children had/have disabilities, I can do that again.

I know this is an emotional response, but is it God sent? I will know more as time passes and the children are readied for adoption. All I can do for now is pray for them.

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Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Old Movies

Tonight we watched old home movies. Not the VHS kind, the old, lug out the projector, find the 8mm reel to reel and a place on the wall to watch these silent oldies but goodies.

We watched flickering images from the 50's forward and even saw flags flying at half mast over the Texas Capitol for JFK. In these wonderful films we are eternally young, our beloved family members are still here and life was simple.

I can't wait to get these made for Christmas. I have a warm glow in my heart tonight and plan on dreaming about my childhood.

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Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Epherma

I just added the app to write to my blog when I'm away from the computer. This is kinda nice!

Tomorrow is our daughters birthday. Jessica will be 23. I have no idea what to do for her bd. Thursday Kat and I will be driving back to Texas to pick up little Alex. We have worked so hard to get Christmas stuff up so he will be suprised.

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